in a funk

After two weeks of AWESOMENESS... I am officially in a funk. Eating just to eat, feeling fat and gross and not getting to the gym or my runs in.

BLAH...

Im taking back over tomorrow with a 12 mile run. Not quite sure how its going to happen yet time wise but it will happen!

weight gain and a double digit run

During the day I have all these grand ideas for things to post. I take cute pictures and plan to share the training info from my Garmin. BUT then at the end of the day Im just exhausted. The thought of uploading pics or copying then sharing my Garmin info is just too much.

 So instead you get the same boring post as ever. This is what I did today, this is what the week ahead looks like. Todays weigh in - 166.8 (up 1.8lbs). The last 4-5 days I threw the no wheat thing out the window and within 24 hours the binging tendency came back full force. Yes you could say it was because I denied myself certain things and then I binged on them but before denying myself them I was still binging on them. I cannot have certain things - period. Why do I need to let a week of eating crap to remind myself of that??? 


Yesterday was supposed to be my long run - 11 miles, but I only got in 6. So today I forced myself to get up at 445 in the morning and was out the door by 5am. I was very proud of myself for that! Got in 11 miles. It wasnt pretty. I did not enjoy myself after mile 8. But I did it. And I finished the run with my first ever ice bath... freaky that it was freezing but felt great all at the same time. Regardless my legs feel pretty good right now. I was going to go to cx works class this morning but a nap won and boy did I sleep hard!

 I have been right on with my food today. I work the next three days and havent really prepped much for those three days so I am going to need to get busy on that.

 What does the rest of the week look like?
 Monday - rest day :) woohoo, shame I have to work 12 hours
Tuesday - 30 min run on treadmill then body pump class before work
 Wednesday - early spin class before work
 Thur - tempo 6 mile run
Fri - body pump
 Sat - long run before taking the kids to Jersey for the weekend (yes I will be TIRED)

struggling

I have been struggling a bit in the eating department the last 2-3 days - all starting from when I forgot my lunch. I have had the "screw it" mentality that needs to go away! I am sitting right now in a pair of shorts that didnt fit last month - they look very nice. I have had progress. I can do this. I need to get my mind back in the swing of things. Was supposed to do early body pump this morning but stayed up too late reading... didnt get up. So need to do some form of cardio and weights at home today later. Tomorrow is a biggie... 10 to 11 mile run. I need to hydrate today.

note to self

Great job getting out the door and to super early body pump before work. Yes it ducks you left your breakfast and lunch at home and will need to buy all your food today.... that is NOT an excuse to binge on crap. You have made great smart decisions for over 2weks now and the scale J's rewarding you. Keep it up!

Love her!

I love this girl more than I ever could have imagined! 

I almost said "screw" it and made today a nonwork out day. But then things were starting to whined down at home and I reminded myself I was worth it! So I put my gabbing smiling laughing little girl into bed for the night, put starwars on the tv for the 5 year old and hit the home gyms treadmill. 40 min into my workout, G came down and "worked out" with me (he is SOOOOO funny) and when we were done this was the site of my gorgeous sleeping princess. 

Now both kids are sound asleep and I just enjoyed an amazing grilled local peach - yummy! 

I am one happy mom! 

Next week**updated for weigh in

Tomorrow I will post my weigh in update and challange stuff.

Tonight I want to focus on goals for the coming week -

Workout goals:

• Sunday - Run 2 mile warm up, 2 miles at race pace, 2 miles cool down
• Monday - spin class and cx works
• Tuesday - early pump class
• Wednesday - early 4 mile run
• Thursday - early spin
• Friday - 11 mile run/upper body weights
• Saturday -rest

Personal goal:

• I am so sick of having my alarm clock dictate my morning. I hit snooze A LOT... A-L-O-T! So I am making a new goal for this week. I will not hit snooze this week... not one single time. When my alarm goes off ... crazy idea... lets actually WAKE UP! To assist with this I will not be setting my alarm for a ridiculously early unrealistic time. I will not stay up super late. I will preset my coffee maker so coffee will be waiting for me. 

Home goal:

• I am so so so so so sick of clutter. Tomorrow (Sunday) I am going to clear out my bedroom and get all of the clothes put away and do a deep clean of the kitchen sink. Before bed every night my clothes will be put away and no dishes in the sink.

As for the summer sizzle slim down challange - this weeks goal is to sign up for a 5k. Consider that done over and over - every run this week and every week for the next 12 weeks will be longer than a 5k. I have a half marathon planned for September and a full marathon planned for November. I am in full training mode.

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*** Updated for Sunday 7/15 mornings weigh in***   Todays weigh in 165... down 2 lbs this week! I really was starting to think that this week would stay at 167 so I was super happy this morning! 

happy to report

I am happy to report that I did not give in last night to the feeling sorry for myself and wanting apple jacks. I am still wheat free :)  (minus some soy sauce but thats just a weird place for wheat to be!)

No Im not aiming to be wheat free for life - its not a medical reason. BUT I made a promise to myself that I would go a full month. IF I give in because Im having a pity party for one - what does that say to myself? That reminds myself that Im not worth it and I am!

Lunch is packed - time to shower and get to work. Got to love working weekends... expecially when my sitter cancels friday evening and my mom is out of town - thank god for great friends!

Whats on todays menu?

Breakfast - 1 egg, 2 egg white omelet with 1/2 serving turkey sausage crumbles, red onion, green peppers and 1/2 serving shredded cheese. Coffee with almond milk.

Lunch - diced chicken on a lettuce wrap, bowl of mixed roasted veggies, and a grapefruit.

Dinner - Tilapia, brussel sprouts with goat cheese. Sugar free jello

Snacks packed - 24 raw almonds, 100 cal cottage cheese doubler with pineapple, 1/2 serving of plain greek yogurt with powdered pb, cocoa powder and 1/2 banana mixed in, an apple.

If I eat every last bite and NOTHING else then Im at 1160 calories - 40 shy from my daily goal... and thats alot of food!

why oh why???

My scale battery died a few days ago. Technically weigh in isn't until Sunday so no sweat... dont need the scale until Sunday. BUT Im a daily morning weigher. The last few days my diet, while not horrible, has included a bite or two of fruit snacks, a handful of M&Ms ect. Definately NOT what I need.

And just now - after having dinner and a large drink I decided that this would be the perfect time to put my new battery in the scale and I HAD to weigh myself... it was like I was craving it. I HAD to do it... as Im walking to the scale, I am saying over and over "this is a bad idea, dont do it"


But of course I did it - and of course the number SUCKED. 172. Thats 4 or 5 lbs up from my weigh in just a few days ago :(   Could it be...

• my battery was dying and the weights recently were not correct so that lovely low number I was last week despite all the hard work wasnt right?
• Its mid day, after eating, bloated weight that will magically seem better in the morning?
• I over did it on bites here and there and ruined my hard work efforts without really realizing it?
• I ate out last night and took in WAY more sodium than normal...water weight maybe

Regardless it SUCKS. And I want to sit here and feel sorry for myself. I want to go on a wheat eating binge more than I have ever wanted to before. I want a pastry, and toast with butter, and a cinnomon roll and a big  bowl of apple jacks. 

a few more NSV!

Sometimes you are in the zone and sometimes you are not... right now Im in the zone and it feels AWESOME! For once the scale is starting to move again but Im even happier about the NSV's I am wracking up.

I have stepped so far out of my comfort zone. In the last three weeks I have tried 3 different new classes at the gym and LOVED them to the point where Im rearranging my entire schedule to get them in more regularly.

And I have decided to take another step in my running - I inquired about a running coach. They are NOT just for major athletes. I want to complete this training with less injuries, stronger and happier. We will see if something comes of it and I will keep you posted!

And today my scale battery died.... did I rush out to get a new one? NOPE - Im thinking Sat after work I will pick one up :) Weigh in is Sunday.

BEING SWEATY ROCKS!!!

Being sweaty is SOOOO much better than not being sweaty and regretting it!

Its 1025pm and I am just finishing up with the day. I meant to run this morning but my bed was not letting me out of it. Then I was going to run at the gym but we didnt make it there. Got home from some activities with the kids at 7pm and we took a family walk. Got the kids to bed. Worked on tagging kid stuff for the consignment sale this weekend. Then before I knew it - it was 920pm. And I hadnt worked out yet. I almost gave in and said that I would just sit back and watch tv. But no... I reminded myself. I am training for a freaking marathon! If I dont get my miles in then I will NOT be ready and am much ore likely to be even more injured. So off to the treadmill I went.

And now its done, Im happy and proud of myself. Now to sit, relax and get to bed!

this week

I forgot to remind myself of this weeks workout goals... its changed a bit since I made the monthly list.

Sunday - aimed for 5 miles, only completed 2
Monday - early morning spin class
Tuesday - 4 mile run with mid two at race pace
Wed -  "strong and lean" class, 2 mile run
Thur - long run 9 miles
Friday - Tabata
Sat - rest

And I talked with my favorite teacher at the gym about my right posterior shin splint... I need to get a tennis ball and work it! Hopefully I can handle 3 days in a row of running.

NSV's are awesome!

I am happy to report quite a few non-scale victories this week

• I ventured out of my comfort zone for yet another "new to me" class - Tabata ... and I LOVED IT! I am so freaking sore still but I look forward to doing it again this Friday!
• Going wheat free has had its challenges but I have been 100% committed. Not a single bite! I turned down SOOOO many baked goods this week. Today I turned down the most awesome looking homemade blueberry bread. And hubby ordered pizza tonight. I didnt have a single bite. By telling myself NO WHEAT... it stopped the "well I will only have a small piece" or "no one will see this so it doesnt count". No wheat meant exactly that - no wheat. Yaaa me! 
• After not being able to run this morning because Bre woke up too early - I worked 10 hours then came home and ventured outside for 2 miles. I was aiming for 5 but seeing that its hotter than hell and soooo muggy - 2 is ok with me :)
• Yesterday I wanted a candy bar when I was at work. I got money and headed towards the elevator to go to the vending machine. I got to the elevator and said "no I dont need this" and turned around. Went back to the unit and made my protein shake instead! 
• I have carried my water everywhere. 
• Yesterday I was starving after work... knowing I didnt have anything at home, I stopped on my way home and picked up a rotisserie chicken and then roasted some quick veggies instead of grabbing fast food or giving in to something in the wheat family!
• This week my sodium intake has been drastically lower - by going wheat free you cut out almost all processed food!

I am very proud of myself off the scale this week! And while I was hoping for something "biggest loser" worthy on the scale this week but I am still very happy with the results. Down 2.5 lbs ... weight 167!

We are going into the 6th week of the summer sizzle slim down challange... I cant believe how fast this summer is going!  Next weeks challange is to go vegitarian for the week. Unfortinately - I will NOT be participating. I have no desire to go meat free. None. I eat almost no red meat as it is but chicken is one of my staples. Having newly gone wheat free - dropping meat too, I think would be to limiting for me and would end up with me failing at both. I will do a day :)

Holy soreness batman!

Thank goodness today is a scheduled off day - I AM SORE! OMG SORE!

Shame I have to go to work :(

Tabata...

Tabata is no joke... omg!

What is Tabata? In a nut shell, Tabata is high intensity cardiac interval training. More specifically its a 4 min circuit with 20 sec on, 10 sec off.

I was meant to take the class today. Just yesterday I was curious about Tabata and tried to find some videos to try online and asked about it on some of the fitness sites I frequent. Then today at the gym I was all set for spin class. First I was going to do some weights though. The two chicks next to me were talking about the Tabata class that is at the same time as my spin class. Then I went down stairs to get ready for spin and ran into my favorite instructor Kim... who just happenned to be on her way to teach Tabata. So of course I had to change course and go there instead.

Have to say - I was NERVOUS. At a size 10 I was easily the biggest girl in the class out of probually 40 women. All of those super fit women I see in the gym busting ass were in this class.... I hid in the back.

OMG ... SOOOOOOOO hard! But in such a good way. I think my work with Insanity prepped me a bit. I was dripping sweat. It was awesome. Now Im home. Just had my protein green shake that rocked and Im waiting for baby girl to get tired so I can shower and lay down... Im done!

a tad bit injured

OMG IM GOING TO SCREAM!!!! AHHHHH! I have been trying to upload pics to this for an hour and NOTHING... soooooo freaking annoying.... now back to my post.

I am sad to say that one week into marathon training and I have my first "injury" - I was hoping it would be gone by now but this posterior shin splint is being a giant pain in my ass leg.

The pain started after being adjusted by a chiro that is not my normal chiro this past Monday. Within 2 hours of the adjustment my right butt hurt and then in the morning the shin splint started so I don't think its really a training injury but its preventing me from training as planned right now. I went back to the my regular chiro today... it must have been a mess because she had to do a ton and didnt charge me and apologized about 4 times. Hopefully I will feel better soon.

Anyways -
Started the morning on the scale - as usual. I am so happy to keep seeing the 160s ... cant wait until the 150s!
(A picture was supposed to be here)

After leaving the chiro, I treated myself to new running shoes... love new shoes!
(insert pic here...oh yea blogger wont let me!)

I tried to still get my 8 miler in today... not happenning. Stopped after 3 miles. Then stretched and iced.

And ended the day with my favorite sugarless, flourless, 20 second chocolate "cake" with berries and whip cream (dont you wish you could see the pic I took???)

tomorrow

Tomorrow will be my first long run since starting to train again.... 8 miles. I'm a bit nervous since my leg has not been feeling all that great. I plan to get to the chiropractor and get new shoes but timing wise I need to run firstbefore it gets to hot. Heading to bed early. Route is planned and written down... ipod and garmin are charged. _I will have a good run! Updates tomorrow.....

the high and the low

It amazes me that I can feel AWESOME and CRUMMY at the exact same time.

First the awesome. Today I realized what is different on this wheat free kick... yes I know its only been 3 days. But in those three days I have not binged once. I havent had the desire or massive cravings at all. Today I had a major test. A patients family brought in a HUGE Amish basket of backed goods. Homemade muffins, cakes, bread, mini pies, cookies. It looked fabulous. I admired it ... wished I could eat it for about a second then moved on. I didnt take a single nibble. When last week I would have tried a piece or two of everything in the basket... easily racking up 1000 calories like it was nothing. The more I eat of it the more I crave. And lucky for me - when I refrain, the cravings so far have gone away.

Now for the crummy. Im feeling like a pretty crummy mom right now. I do not even know if I can put it into words to do the feelings justice. As a kid, I enjoyed just being a kid. I have fond memories of catching fireflies, 4th of July parades, fireworks ect. Granted not in a single one of those memories do I remember my mom being there and involved but still. I worry that my kid will not look at his childhood in the same fashion. He constantly says he cant wait to grow up - he is 5. It was 102 degrees during the parade so we didnt go. Hubby and I both work tomorrow - the 4th and really dont have many plans for anything special coming up. He goes to bed by 830 so misses out on the fun summer night "stuff". I worry that we are not putting enough fond happy family memories in his head. The holiday is just an example of that.

Listening to my body

This morning I had an easy 3 mile run scheduled. I went to bed early, layed out my running clothes,got up when my alarm sounded and got out the door... I was very proud of myself. Until about a mile into the run.

Yesterday and again this morning my leg hurt - specicially the right leg on the inner lower side where the calf meets the shin. Yesterday I ran through it. Today my body wouldnt let me and I walked home.

Of course I googled it - looks/sounds like a posterior shin splint. Their advise - ice, elevation, motrin, stretching and rest. So Im sitting here with an ice pack wrapped around it and it up on a chair. Im stressing about the rest part. I have 8 miles on the books for Thur. I have been looking forward to it all week. But I will listen to my body. If I need a few days off now so I can run strong than so be it.

Ok off to stretch and find that motrin.

Longest post EVER....

Today was day one of no wheat... a lot easier than I thought it would be. Granted of course I miss the scones at Panera and what not but my body wont miss the 500 calories that comes with it!

Here has been my meals for today
8am - 1 egg, 2 egg whites, 1/2 oz goat cheese, sauted red onion and mushrooms and a grapefruit.

That wonderful color is from 1 yolk... amazing how much better local farm eggs are!

1230pm - cottage cheese doubler, cheese stick, 1/2 cup strawberries

230pm -  1/2 serving turkey pepperoni dipped in spicey mustard

3pm - protein shake with powdered pb, banana and spinach

6pm - tilapia,roasted red potatoes, mixed roasted veggies

Easiest way to make food for one! Take a piece of fish (this is Tilapia), put whatever you want on it - I put  basil, red pepper, fresh garlic and onion flakes.

Wrap it in foil, leaving room on the top for steam. Place it in a pan of boiling water for 12 minutes. Regardless of the fish, it appears to be perfect EVERY single time. I have done this with Tilapia and Salmon.

Finished product. Tonights dinner - the fish straight from the foil, a few roasted potatoes and some roasted veggies with goat cheese. Very yummy!

Dessert is about to be made... 20 sec sugar free chocolate "cake" - this is also wheat free :)
I will post this recipe later promise! Plan to top it with a sprinkle of powdered peanut butter and half a banana!

The beginning of marathon training has rocked to!
30 min CX works core class
3 mile run
4 thirty second sprints at a 6:30 min/mile and 7 min/miles.

And very quickly... my summer challange. I have kind of sucked at it. The beginning of the week I was getting my water intake ATLEAST into the 90s. The last few days I have had more diet pepsi than water. I will continue to work on this. And I only lost 0.5 lb. Again - work in progress.

As for this coming weeks goals....
1. Lose 2 lbs.
2. Do every workout that is planned.
3. Drink minimally 64 oz water/day
4. No wheat.