Tuesday, January 10, 2012

an AHA moment...

SO this morning wasnt feeling so great about myself - FOR NO REASON... I have been doing awesome. But doubt crept into my head. What if I didnt do well enough? What if I didnt track my points correctly? ect ect ect.

I was in the car with my little princess asleep in her carseat driving to weight watchers to weigh in this morning and I had an aha moment. I was thinking about how I talk to my children. I tell my 5 year old way more times than I can count every day that I love him. When he does well or tries something I tell him how proud I am of him - also several times a day. I tell him he is strong, smart, and sweet. I tell him he can be anything, do anything as long as he tries. I tell him never to give up - when something is hard that just means you have to try harder.

And what do I tell myself? I tell myself Im fat, short, ugly, a bad wife, not worth it, ect ect ect... you know what bad self talk Im talking about. When did I stop telling myself that I love me, that Im worth it, that Im proud of myself?

I am smart.
I am a strong.
I am a great mom.
I am a good wife.
I am considerate.
I am passionate.
I am alot more than I give myself credit for.

And I am PROUD of myself. Im proud that I got back into the swing of things so soon after having a baby instead of making that another excuse. Im proud that my body has produced two wonderful human beings. Im proud that my legs, and brain - carried me 26.2 miles last spring. Im proud of my work in the ICU... I am VERY good at what I do and I make a difference in peoples lives.

I am so much more than that horrible self talk. The bad talk isnt going to go away overnight but I need to work harder on it going away. If something is hard, that means you work harder.

Oh and I lost 2.6 lbs this week! WOOHOO!


  1. Awesome job on the 2.6! Positive thinking is hard to master. On days I struggle, I like to write five things i like about myself right then and there.

  2. Excellent post - I also speak to my children in the same way. I love you. I'm proud of you. Good job. Why can't I tell myself the same? Hmmm...
    Great points raised. So glad you can see it and can start to feel it.

  3. Yes, yes you are! Congrats on the loss. =)

  4. Congratulations on the weight loss, I have to weigh in tonight. I think we all talk to ourselves like that when we need to treat outselves with alittle more compassion and understanding like we do everyone else.

  5. Affirmations work wonders! you ARE wonderful in so many ways! keep on telling yourself that! congrats on your loss this week!