Ive had a few moments the last few days - sorry I havent been on lately. I have been in the black hole of myself. Yesterday I ate and ate like I would never get to eat again. I was rude to people that I had no place being rude to. I took everything someone said to me the wrong way. Everytime someone gives me a compliment on the way I look now, inside I cringe and feel awful for no real reason then I eat. I dont feel like I deserve the attention.
I have been off my antidepressant for 2 months now - after the marathon in march Im going to try to have a baby and wanted it all out of my system... wow what a difference. My positiveness is GONE. My drive, focus... gone. My ability to function - so so but not nearly what it was.
I think I need to see a shrink but have no clue how to go about finding one that deals with binge eating, body image issues. Any suggestions?