So I started the morning making my way back to a weight watchers meeting. And I am soooo glad I did! Yes I found that I gained alittle over 5 lbs since the last time I was there... Im at 163... that is a HUGE gain for me! BUT it was like the meeting was made for me. The discussion was about hitting obsticles and either quiting or succeeding... up until today I had been a quitter. I would hit one little obsticle - someone said something that hurt my feelings, stress, busy day, ect and I would hit a wall and then eat everything that wasnt nailed down. It was a good meeting. I need them!
Then I headed to the gym... I was on the treadmill for three freaking hours - about 15 miles, Im a slow runner. The last 30 min HURT to the point where I walked most of it but I was ok with that. I need to get to the running store and get new shoes. Around mile 11-12 my toes were pretty much numb.
Got my feelings hurt a bit on something private. I deserved it but that didnt stop me from feeling it. I push people away and come acrossed as a bitch way more than I would like to admit- I have a tendency to push people away and be rude before they can realize that I am not awesome. That they will reject me. I do it alot.