Monday, January 31, 2011

A good day...

So I started the morning making my way back to a weight watchers meeting. And I am soooo glad I did! Yes I found that I gained alittle over 5 lbs since the last time I was there... Im at 163... that is a HUGE gain for me! BUT it was like the meeting was made for me. The discussion was about hitting obsticles and either quiting or succeeding... up until today I had been a quitter. I would hit one little obsticle - someone said something that hurt my feelings, stress, busy day, ect and I would hit a wall and then eat everything that wasnt nailed down. It was a good meeting. I need them!

Then I headed to the gym... I was on the treadmill for three freaking hours - about 15 miles, Im a slow runner. The last 30 min HURT to the point where I walked most of it but I was ok with that. I need to get to the running store and get new shoes. Around mile 11-12 my toes were pretty much numb.

Got my feelings hurt a bit on something private. I deserved it but that didnt stop me from feeling it. I push people away and come acrossed as a bitch way more than I would like to admit- I have a tendency to push people away and be rude before they can realize that I am not awesome. That they will reject me. I do it alot.


  1. I'm sorry you got your feelings hurt-I understand why you push, too. I'm right there with you. I tend to judge and treat those poorly that I feel are better than me and going to reject me. It's a work in progress for me...

    And I cannot even imagine staying on a treadmill for 3 hours-good for you!

    Polar's Mom

  2. Great job on the long run, and the new start. And recognizing a problem is the first step to fixing it. I know that you know that we all have insecurity issues, no matter how much bravado we display. And you are awesome, so there's no need to push people away. :)

  3. WTG on the miles!!!! I'm a slow runner, too, so I feel ya there.

  4. Good job on the miles! I so don't think I could do that!