I just realized I lost two followers this week. While the brain in me may say "well some people may just be cleaning out what they actually read or have closed their blogger account". What I actually think and say to myself goes more along the lines of - who wants to read about you telling everyone how you gained weight this week? Who wants to read that you have lost your umphh? You are boring, fat, not funny and not interesting.
Yes I say these horrible things to myself - way more than I would, and worse when I say it - I also believe myself. I would NEVER talk to someone else like I talk to myself.
I went off my antidepressant last month. Normally when I get into one of these funks I blame the meds. But I have these mini funks when Im medicated too. And I told myself 3 months of no meds and re-evaluate. Im sick of relying on meds to make me happier. Not to mention I suck at remembering to take it.
Anyways sorry about the mini self rant - I have not been doing well lately. I do not really know why. I LIKE to exercise. I LIKE to eat good healthy food. But I continously sabatage myself. Damn it I am worthy!
As for the challange this week - 6 hours of exercise. Well it didnt happen. I blame being away for the funeral until Tuesday but I could have taken my tennis shoes with me. I did NOTHING Friday or Saturday. Friday I worked 12 hours and had a bit of a head cold and yesterday I opted to massively clean and rearrange the bedrooms. So I only got in 3 hours of exercise this week.
Week 3 - (begin June 17) - TRY A NEW FITNESS ACTIVITY OR PIECE OF EQUIPMENT
I will have to take a look at the gym schedule and figure out what new class I would like to try. There really isnt any equipement I have not tried at the gym. There are several classes I have wanted to take though.
This weeks workout schedule is crazy ambitious but I never do it all so if I only do half I would be happy. Plus the more I push myself the better I do. I like not leaving myself time for self doubt!
Sunday 2 mile run, full body weights and insanity. Maybe a short hike with the family
Monday early am spin class, insanity
Tues swim laps and insanity
Wed early morning spin NO insanity
Thur early swim, insanity
Friday pump express/cxworks ****NEW ACTIVITY!!!!
Saturday 5 mile run, insanity
My goals this week...
1. JOURNAL MY FOOD... all of it, every freaking day!
2. Get the 6 hours minimum of exercise in that I didnt do in this past week
3. Try the pump/cx works class I have been DYING to try but SCARED
4. Daily remind myself that I am awesome