Wednesday, September 19, 2012

I love a good aha moment!

First off I was awesome eating wise today -

  • Im pms'ing and want chocolate BADLY and looked at recipes for desserts all day trying to figure out something for that party but did NOT give in. Even when my family was roasting marshmellows in the bonfire tonight!
  • Went out to lunch with a friend - looked at the menu online before hand and stuck with my plain garden salad with salmon and oil and vinegar. No not crazy tasty but did the job. 
  • Wanted to eat just to eat... told myself to suck it up and get over it. Drink a glass of water and move on.
I did my cross fit workout for the day - 
15 lunges holding 2 10lb barbells
60 times with jump rope
repeat 5 times total.

Dinner was done. We headed out for a family bonfire. Got the kids cleaned up and in bed. And I thought to myself - wow it feels so nice outside, you have energy ... go for a run. So off I went into the dark for a 3 mile run around the neighborhood. Felt great.

That is where the aha moment came from. I have taken to listening to podcast during runs. I was listening to Jillian Michaels. They were talking about reinforcement, self talk ect. 

They discussed an analogy where a kid finishes a math test and the teacher says "Bobby you did so well, you are amazing at math. Would you like to take another harder test" The boy says NO. (he is told he is really good at something and being faced with something harder might make him fail and then he wouldnt be super good at it anymore). Another kid finishes a math test the teacher says to him "wow bobby I am so impressed with how hard you worked and the attention you gave it, would you like to take another harder test". The kids says yes (he has been rewarded for his hard work and is willing to keep working hard and trying).

What does this mean to me??? The months before I got pregnant with Bre I was at my lowest weight ever. I felt amazing. I thought I looked amazing. People told me all the time that I looked awesome or I did a great job losing weight. It was always the final product - not the process of getting there that was praised. I started stressing out and when I started to slide into bad habits I felt like I was letting all of those other people down too. I wasnt the success story anymore. 

When what I should have been thinking was - wow I worked really hard and sacrificed alot to get where I was. I put in the time and the work and it was that work that was awesome - not just the final product. 

Does that make sense to anyone besides in my head?

1 comment:

  1. No, I get it completely. You become the product. So if you are no longer thin, then you have failed...but if you are the person who is working and attaining and the focus is in the are no longer a number. You are a fighter. It is much more empowering.