Sunday, December 16, 2012

proud of me ... and dreaded pics...


Im writing this as a two part post although you will be reading it all together. I am in an AWESOME mood. Tired. But happy and proud of me. BUT I know me, and as soon as I take my pics I will only think horrible things and I dont want it to ruin my happy place. So this is my happy place. Later probually not so much :) And yes it might seem like Im bipolar as you read it all together but Im ok... promise.

Today I have felt in control of my eating for the first time in a LONG time. I went to a 3 year olds bday party  today. It wasnt at a meal time. I ate before I went. I told myself that I dont need anything. There was pizza, soda, chips, cake, icecream. And I ate NADA... not one single bite. PROUD OF ME!!!! Drank my bottle of water and ate once I got home. Yaaa me!

I also went back to tracking on ... it has such a better app then the weight watchers app and I like seeing my breakdown of carbs, protein, ect.

Im also reenergized for tough mudder! I cant wait to really get into training. And one of my favorite bloggers over at will be there! I know she is "normal" but I totally am in awe... she is such an inspiration.

ok - still need to get the kids settled and bathed and in bed. TTYL

OMG OMG OMG...ewwwww. Im looking at these pics and cant see ANYTHING I like. I look unhappy. My posture is HORRIBLE. I have NO chin, no definintion. And I have back rolls. Guess we need to stop ignoring and acknowledge before you can improve and fix things. Im sending these to walgreens right now to print to put on my mirror. EWW EWW EWW.