the high and the low

It amazes me that I can feel AWESOME and CRUMMY at the exact same time.

First the awesome. Today I realized what is different on this wheat free kick... yes I know its only been 3 days. But in those three days I have not binged once. I havent had the desire or massive cravings at all. Today I had a major test. A patients family brought in a HUGE Amish basket of backed goods. Homemade muffins, cakes, bread, mini pies, cookies. It looked fabulous. I admired it ... wished I could eat it for about a second then moved on. I didnt take a single nibble. When last week I would have tried a piece or two of everything in the basket... easily racking up 1000 calories like it was nothing. The more I eat of it the more I crave. And lucky for me - when I refrain, the cravings so far have gone away.

Now for the crummy. Im feeling like a pretty crummy mom right now. I do not even know if I can put it into words to do the feelings justice. As a kid, I enjoyed just being a kid. I have fond memories of catching fireflies, 4th of July parades, fireworks ect. Granted not in a single one of those memories do I remember my mom being there and involved but still. I worry that my kid will not look at his childhood in the same fashion. He constantly says he cant wait to grow up - he is 5. It was 102 degrees during the parade so we didnt go. Hubby and I both work tomorrow - the 4th and really dont have many plans for anything special coming up. He goes to bed by 830 so misses out on the fun summer night "stuff". I worry that we are not putting enough fond happy family memories in his head. The holiday is just an example of that.

Listening to my body

This morning I had an easy 3 mile run scheduled. I went to bed early, layed out my running clothes,got up when my alarm sounded and got out the door... I was very proud of myself. Until about a mile into the run.

Yesterday and again this morning my leg hurt - specicially the right leg on the inner lower side where the calf meets the shin. Yesterday I ran through it. Today my body wouldnt let me and I walked home.

Of course I googled it - looks/sounds like a posterior shin splint. Their advise - ice, elevation, motrin, stretching and rest. So Im sitting here with an ice pack wrapped around it and it up on a chair. Im stressing about the rest part. I have 8 miles on the books for Thur. I have been looking forward to it all week. But I will listen to my body. If I need a few days off now so I can run strong than so be it.

Ok off to stretch and find that motrin.

Longest post EVER....

Today was day one of no wheat... a lot easier than I thought it would be. Granted of course I miss the scones at Panera and what not but my body wont miss the 500 calories that comes with it!

Here has been my meals for today
8am - 1 egg, 2 egg whites, 1/2 oz goat cheese, sauted red onion and mushrooms and a grapefruit.

That wonderful color is from 1 yolk... amazing how much better local farm eggs are!

1230pm - cottage cheese doubler, cheese stick, 1/2 cup strawberries

230pm -  1/2 serving turkey pepperoni dipped in spicey mustard

3pm - protein shake with powdered pb, banana and spinach

6pm - tilapia,roasted red potatoes, mixed roasted veggies

Easiest way to make food for one! Take a piece of fish (this is Tilapia), put whatever you want on it - I put  basil, red pepper, fresh garlic and onion flakes.

Wrap it in foil, leaving room on the top for steam. Place it in a pan of boiling water for 12 minutes. Regardless of the fish, it appears to be perfect EVERY single time. I have done this with Tilapia and Salmon.

Finished product. Tonights dinner - the fish straight from the foil, a few roasted potatoes and some roasted veggies with goat cheese. Very yummy!

Dessert is about to be made... 20 sec sugar free chocolate "cake" - this is also wheat free :)
I will post this recipe later promise! Plan to top it with a sprinkle of powdered peanut butter and half a banana!

The beginning of marathon training has rocked to!
30 min CX works core class
3 mile run
4 thirty second sprints at a 6:30 min/mile and 7 min/miles.

And very quickly... my summer challange. I have kind of sucked at it. The beginning of the week I was getting my water intake ATLEAST into the 90s. The last few days I have had more diet pepsi than water. I will continue to work on this. And I only lost 0.5 lb. Again - work in progress.

As for this coming weeks goals....
1. Lose 2 lbs.
2. Do every workout that is planned.
3. Drink minimally 64 oz water/day
4. No wheat.