UPDATE on the Top 100

First Weekly UPDATE

Goals:
1. 30 min of exercise, even if its just running around with my preschooler or taking my dog for a brisk walk, minimum every single day. Not so hot on this one so far, have not worked out in for three days running but if you follow my blog I just discussed this in detail and Im getting back on track today!

2. Start taking a multi vitamen every day - I have no clue why I have such a difficulty with this!?! Woohoo I have actually done this one! I dont think I can honestly say that I feel any different because of it yet but its only been a week.

3. JOURNAL, JOURNAL, JOURNAL... both my food and my blog :) Umm... yea, I have been blogging like a crazy women. But need to work on the food journaling though.

4. Spend more time with my friends and let them know how much I care for them. Not sure on this one, I havent had much down time to work on this. I hope they know how much they mean to me :)

5. Hit the 140s! Yup havent made even an miliwatt coverage on this one - NADA, nothing, but like I said above it you read me you read about this too.

6. Run a half marathon (october 16th!!!) This is coming up SOOOO soon - 15 days to be exact. Getting a tad bit nervous!

7. Start every morning and end every night letting my husband know that I love him. This hasnt been going so hot either - we havent really been connecting much this week. We have been passing in the dark it seems and when we are both home we have been doing our own thing. We need to work on the reconnecting thing.

8. Read Gavin a book before bed most nights. When I have been home this has been a go - last night we sat on the couch and told each other short stories. It was so cute!

9. Be more silly, fun, and active with Gavin. Ditto number 8s response

Ok having relooked at these, I agree that this is what I need to work on but curious if I should lump some of them together. 9 goals is quite a bit!

How is your first week of the last 100 days of 2010 going???

RAINY RAINY thursday...

It is a raining mess today - to the point where public schools had to close early due to flash floods. Holy moly!

Plan today was to drop G off and head directly to the gym for my 10 mile run. Well from the car to preschool to car left me with soaking wet socks and shoes. Not really great run materials. So the plan was to pop by Rach's house, let my socks dry (I have an extra pair of running shoes in the car) then head out. Well the rainy bummy day took over and I never made it to the gym.

Am I bummed - sort of but its all good.

When I picked G up we braved the rain and went to the grocery store. Hubby went yesterday and filled my house with JUNK... I swear he is trying to sabatage me! So I went and bought some lean meats and tons and tons of veggies. Im going to make some veggie soup this afternoon. And plan to marinate and grill some chicken for the use of the next few days this afternoon. Im going to aim for a few days to eat clean and fresh... I was inspired by the biggest loser this week (watched it last night). Im going to aim for my carbs in the am only and lean meats and tons of veggies for lunch and dinner and fruit and veggies for snacks. While I would LOVE to eat like that all the time, I know that isnt realistic but I can get me doing it for a few days then just try to do it primarily.

I dont need all that other stuff. I dont need the snacks, chips, ect. I buy all this "diet" type food. Low fat, low sugar man made full of preservative crap and think Im eating healthy since Im eating low calorie. Yes it has helped me loose weight but hasnt helped me to really learn to care for my body right or make myself feel better. I think more whole healthy fresh nonprocessed food will do that.

So we will see how I feel for the next few days.

Today so far I have had
Lite english muffin with natural peanut butter and fruit preserves
tuna fish with mustard, a smear of mayo made with canola oil and dill with 1 serving of lite wheat thins

In a perfect world the lunch would have been tuna wrapped in lettuce leaves(I actually like that :) ) and some carrot sticks.

I will still get my 10 miles in today but they may be spread out over the course of the afternoon. But they will get in and so will some weight work! But first, a nap with my adorable 4 year old!

where does the real me go?

Where does the real me go when the not so great me takes over.

Where does the real me go when the unhealthy me starts taking over.

Where does the real me go when the bad me starts calling myself not worth it, fat and ugly?

Where does the real me go when I am rolling down that horrible period of overeating, not exercising, not drinking water, not sleeping, and not caring about my body?

Can someone PLEASE tell me the answers to this because I really dont know. I do so well. I feel so proud of me. I feel strong and in charge. I feel happy and at piece with myself. I feel like I am worth it. THEN...

It just goes away in a big poof for a few days and the real me goes into hiding and lets my evil twin take over without a fight.

The last 3 days I have worked, no big deal. But I gave up and didnt get up to work out before hand. Didnt workout afterwards. Didnt journal. Didnt watch what I ate. Didnt make good food choices. Didnt take the stairs. Didnt drink hardly ANY water. Didnt care about me.

But those three days are over. Im taking back over. I want that evil twin part of me to GO AWAY! Why cant I be the person that can have a one snack or meal set back and then go about my marry way but still make good choices and be healthy... not turn that one snack, meal, or thought into a big messy mess.

A few days ago I posted that I wanted to hit 155 this week. I wanted it bad... well I sabataged that from happenning.

BUT right this moment, tonight .... right now... Im taking back over.

Tomarrow is a run day. A 10 mile scheduled run - my last 10 mile run before going to 6 then 3. My half marathon is 16 days away :) ANd they are calling for a raining, flooding, high wind mess. Which means there is no way in hell I will be running outside. Am I giving up running??? NOPE! I will be tkaing G to preschool and heading to the gym. Im thinking 2 miles on 5 different treadmills. That will break it up a bit right?