after tomorrow I taper!

Im so excited - after tomorrows long run it is taper time! I run my first marathon in 16 freaking days! I am so excited... surprisingly not nervous, very excited! Last October I ran my first (and only) half marathon. When it was taper time I freaked out. I kept thinking I hadnt ran enough, not far enough, not long enough, that I wouldnt be ready. Well this time around I know I did the training, I put the time in, I am ready... and I will ENJOY taper time!

Tomorrows run will not be fun though - time wise a long run doesnt fit into my schedule tomorrow. Its cold and windy and I really dont feel like hills. I only have 4 free hours tomorrow morning and yes it takes me 4 hours to run 20 miles. So my plan - drop G off at preschool and hit the gym. Run 15 miles (3 hours) and my full body weight training workout then tomorrow evening after G goes to bed I will get another 5 miles in on the treadmill at home. Not the same thing as a full long run but it will do what it needs to do training wise. THEN TAPER :) yaaaa!!!

Todays eating - great until my coffee break in the afternoon where I got a scone then sort of down hill from there. I was 20 points over today. Am I stressed? NOPE. I wrote down every single bite. I took ownership. Subtracted it from my extra weekly points and have I mentioned that Im running 20 miles tomorrow :) It will all workout.

I feel in control again. I feel like Im putting myself first again... much needed!

another day another dollar

SO the board finally came through and I will be heading into work in a few min - glad that the stress is done, bummed I dont have an unexpectant day off... cant get everything right ?!?

I tried to wake up to spin at 545 this am but it just wasnt happenning. I woke up to every muscle in my body screaming... awesome weight workout yesterday - miss this feeling! But that means I will be working out late tonight after work, getting G, putting him to bed, ect.

Kicking myself in the butt for not making doubles/triples of last nights dinner to take into work today - I really really thought I would be spending the day at the board of nursing offices. So instead I packed staples of snacks and some lite salad dressing and will get a big salad with chicken from the salad bar at work for lunch today and if they are having a good veggie then I will do dinner at work too - chicken breast and veggies... my go to dinner at work. I packed a WW 1 point cheese stick, 100cal cottage cheese and fruit, an apple and an orange and I already had my shakeology shake for breakfast.

Feels so good to be back - to be actually present and not just floating through the day.

STRESSING OUT

Seriously stressing out here and PEEVED Off!!! The quick version. Im a nurse practitioner. In the state of maryland you hold one license - same license number for your RN and your NP. They are renewed together but listed seperately. They expire yearly on your birthday month. I renewed mine the first week of febuary. This past friday it still wasnt updated as renewed so I called them, they assured it would be by the 28th. Well the RN was, the NP wasnt. Meaning I CANT WORK!!! Monday they had a power outage and were unreachable except via email. I was again told it would be fixed. Today NOPE NOT DONE! No one is answering emails or phone calls. I cant work tomorrow because I DONT HAVE A FREAKING LICENSE to practice... uhhhh!!!!!

So guess where I will be bright and early tomorrow??? Is it near by? Nope... during rush out will probually take me 2 hours to get there. UHHHHH! Over something so freaking simple!

Thank goodness I work with an awesome chick who agreed to do part of my shift tomorrow so they arent without a NP/PA at all. Thanks michelle!

On a side note - I rocked it at the gym today. 45 min on treadmill, 15 min on elliptical and full body workout with weights. Eating has been decent too - despite my mood... shocked I didnt decide to go with a huge margarita tonight!
Breakfast - shake = 4 points
Snack - coffee and an orange = 1 point
Lunch - egg white/sausage on english muffin = 7 points
Snack - carrots with hummus = 1 point
special treat - black bean brownies = 5 points
dinner - chicken, asparagus, mushrooms, potatoe, zucchini, goat cheese = 8 points
snack - rice cake with honey 3 points
29 points total - none left over.... no munching tonight!!!